So pick me, choose me, love me

I am in SUCH a lovey mood today!

"I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there in sickness and in health. I could say 'til death do us part, but I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. And I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic, I am not. I am sure. I am steady. And I know I am a heart man, take them apart, put them back together. I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this, I am sure. You are my partner, my lover, my very best friend. My heart, my heart, beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. I promise you, me."

Ah, Grey's Anatomy, you always have the perfect words.

It's a big deal when you realize that you love someone more than you could possibly love yourself.

Especially when you are the queen of scary and damaged like I am.

But I'm not so scary and damaged. And I love the Boy with all of my heart. And I just realized how much I do today.

I don't want to spend a day of my life without seeing him, or being with him. I can't imagine my life without him, and I don't want to.

Woah.

"And now, I have this heart that beats and works. I get to be like everybody else, I get to make my own decisions, have my own life, do whatever the damned hell I choose. Now here's the good part, so you listen close, what I choose, is you. You're who I want to wake up with and go to bed with and do everything in between with. And do everything in between with. I get a choice now. I get to choose. I choose you."

I never knew that I could feel like this or that this day would ever come.

And I couldn't be happier.