I have the best boyfriend ever

Sorry for falling off the face of the blogging world, but I seem to have come down with the plague.

But I had to share that I have the best boyfriend ever.

He made me homemade chicken noodle soup for dinner.

A real update to come later.

Chip on my shoulder

Yep, that's how I feel. I have got to do amazing!

This is me trying to stay motivated while I write my lab report for Human Physiology.

And adding on my lab for that class in the morning to my normal classes tomorrow. Sigh.

I can do it!

Excitement!

My sister is getting married! AAHHHHHHHHH! EEEEEEE!

So technically she's not my sister. My parents divorced when I was about 9 years old. My dad and her mum were together for about 9 or 10 years, engaged but never officially married. She and I shared a bedroom when I would be with them in the town where he lived, and she and I grew up together. She's about what, 6 years older than me? Then after the 9 or 10 years my dad and her mum split. But I still consider her to be my sister! So there's that little fun backstory in a very small nutshell.

Well she texted me last night and told me that her boyfriend finally proposed! We had known that he was going to back in January, but it was just a matter of when. And she asked me to be one of her bridesmaids, and of course I said yes! She was like "I want to start planning everything now, so be ready!"

Eish, yay weddings!

Off to take an exam then work, then the evening at the Boys!

I hope everyone has a fantastic Friday!

Ciao ciao!

Gonna fly now!

Please tell me someone caught on to my Rocky reference in my title?

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEE so guess what?

I got 100% on my Human Physiology exam!!!

Who the hell does that? They make these exams insane, hello, we're all trying to be doctors here!

Holy hell! I actually said "Shut up!" to my prof today in her office. Ooops, that one slipped, but I couldn't believe her when she told me my score.

It feels so good to be back in my element and doing well. Med School here I come!

When I told the Boy and I was all pumped and such he started singing the Rocky Theme Song to me (aka: "Gonna Fly Now"). So on that note I think I'm gonna watch "Rocky" and write up a lab report!

Hope everyone is having a fabulous day-before-the-weekend-starts!

PS: My favorite Rocky movie? Rocky III, but Rocky IV is a very close second!

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done."

Happy Hump Day!

Ello all!

Whew, it's the end of Wednesday already! This past weekend/week has been insane.

Within a weeks time I will have had 4 exams and 3 quizzes. That's not including class work or lab reports or anything. It's fun stuff trying to be a doctor let me tell you what, hahaha.

Then to top it all off, between last Thursday and Sunday I worked a grand total of 30 hours at work. In 4 days. Now I know that doesn't sound like all too much, I mean it's less than full time right? Yeah no. Not when you're also going to school full time. It's a bitch. But I need the money, so I won't complain!

The Boy and I have also gotten in several fights since Monday. This always happens with us though. We'll go from spending the weekend together and everything will be wonderful, and then come Monday and Tuesday we're fighting. Then come Wednesday (like today), we're good again and looking forward to the next weekend. It's so strange! It's like we can't figure out that transition from being together to being apart. We'll get there. But I don't want to focus on the negatives!

I really do have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. Take for example this past Saturday. I obviously have been working my booty off, Saturday was no different. So I work an 8 hour shift, and once I get back to his place I let him know that we can relax, but first I had to get some of my lab report done and some studying and such. And he was totally ok with it, all he wanted to know was when I was about 10 minutes from being done. His excuse was that he wanted to know when he should wrap up the things he was working on. So of course I get about done, and so I let him know. A few minutes later when I was completely done he came and grabbed my hand and lead me out of his room.

Where is he taking me you might ask? To my wonderful surprise!

He had gone to the store earlier that day and bought me yummy bubble bath and this organic body wash that I am now in love with, and he made me a hot bath! It was so wonderful!

See, it's the little things that make him so incredibly amazing!

In other happy news, I think I may have found a renter for my old apartment. The ex-Snookie met with him today, and apparently they're going out to lunch on Friday to see if they would work well living together. I'm not getting my hopes up, but dear goodness I want him to move in! I let him know that I've already paid Septembers rent, so if he wants to move in he can have this month for free, it's the least I can do if he moves in! I want this whole process to be done and over with, and I am so ready to be done paying rent to NOT live someplace, and not have to live paycheck to paycheck. If this works out then I'll be able to start saving, and the Boy and I can work on getting our own place!

Speaking of having no money, I got a new cell phone! I may have flirted my way into getting it for free though, because I am just that good. It was originally $100 with a discount and then you send in the $50 mail in rebate. Then when I told him I could only afford $50 on the spot, he decided instead of giving me the mail in rebate, he would just credit my account $50 and I would pay $50. And then, with a few more batting of my eyelashes (and surprisingly no usage of my non-existent cleavage due to my sweater I was wearing) he decided to give me the mail in rebate anyways! SCORE! So all I have to do is wait for my rebate to come back in a whopping 10-12 weeks and it will be like I didn't pay for it at all. And thank goodness, I needed a new phone so badly! I counted the other night, and this is only the 4th cell phone I've had in my life. I had one in high school, 1 when I lived in France, 1 that I had for the past 2 and a half years, and now this new one! So it was definitely time for an upgrade. The guy at the store laughed at my phone, maybe he felt sorry for me and decided to give me the amazing discounts.

I felt like there was more I had to say, but this is quite lengthy and I don't feel like updated with the negative and fighting thoughts, mainly because they are all now resolved and not worth dwelling on.

I hope everyone is having a fabulous week, and more updates to come!

XOXO

Mafia

PS....Is anyone else watching Gossip Girl? Um, hello, I love this show!

Ugggggggggggggh

This is how I feel right now.

Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been living at the store I work at and at the boys house.

And I also have 3 exams this week. 1 down. 2 to go.

Sigh.

So pick me, choose me, love me

I am in SUCH a lovey mood today!

"I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there in sickness and in health. I could say 'til death do us part, but I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. And I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic, I am not. I am sure. I am steady. And I know I am a heart man, take them apart, put them back together. I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this, I am sure. You are my partner, my lover, my very best friend. My heart, my heart, beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. I promise you, me."

Ah, Grey's Anatomy, you always have the perfect words.

It's a big deal when you realize that you love someone more than you could possibly love yourself.

Especially when you are the queen of scary and damaged like I am.

But I'm not so scary and damaged. And I love the Boy with all of my heart. And I just realized how much I do today.

I don't want to spend a day of my life without seeing him, or being with him. I can't imagine my life without him, and I don't want to.

Woah.

"And now, I have this heart that beats and works. I get to be like everybody else, I get to make my own decisions, have my own life, do whatever the damned hell I choose. Now here's the good part, so you listen close, what I choose, is you. You're who I want to wake up with and go to bed with and do everything in between with. And do everything in between with. I get a choice now. I get to choose. I choose you."

I never knew that I could feel like this or that this day would ever come.

And I couldn't be happier.

Time for me to get on my soap box for a moment

So, soap box time.

As you in the blogging world know, I'm a premed student hoping and praying and wishing and willing myself into med school with all I've got.

I'm also a very broke college student. I don't like to say that I'm poor because I have to many things in my life that I'm thankful for. My mum always said that we weren't poor, we were broke. And I stick to that. And I don't mind it, because while I may make wish lists out of Vogue and desperately need a new car, and would love all sorts of things, I don't need them. And I know one day that I'll have loads of money, and I'll appreciate it so much more than if someone was just handed the things in life.

But whhhhhhhhhy does everything require money? All I wanted to do tonight was join AMSA (American Medical Student Association). They have a pre-med program, and everyone and their mother knows that this is something you should do if you're serious about med school. So I go and try and sign up, and get through all the processes and then it gets time to pay. $75? What? I know it's not that much but when you're living paycheck to paycheck it just isn't right. I make $8 a hour food goodness sake!

I just don't think that it's fair that people with money should get the advantage over people who have just as much heart and desire (if not more). It's just not right.

There's my soap box. I'm getting down now.

Maybe I should start taking donations. The "Lets Get Mafia into Med-School Fund".

Yep, there it is.

What's focus?

I have absolutely NO focus tonight. It's horrible.

I keep telling myself that if I want to be a doctor one day I have to keep my focus and learn all of this. But hell, even doctors lose focus sometime right? They're people too.

So I think instead I'm going to watch some Grey's Anatomy on DVD and type up some notes. At least it would still be productive.

I found out today that one of Texter's best friends/roommates is in my Genetics class. I realized it when I looked down to my friend who was sitting two people down from me, and he was sitting a few people away from her. I almost started laughing, I had to hold it in. I get the feeling that I won't escape Texter while I'm still at my university.

Oh! I ran into the Boy Formally yesterday. He gave me a hug and all. It was good to see him, he and I got to be decent friends over the past year. He switched his major over to the geosciences, so I won't be seeing him any more in classes, but we decided to meet up and be "break buddies" on campus.

I got to see the Boy on campus today! I loved it. I absolutely love him being so close to me. It sucks because we went from this summer spending so much time together and practically living together, to now me going to classes full time and working, and him working full time plus his second job from home, we are lucky if we spend 2 nights together a week. I so miss him. And I'm beginning to feel like all he does when we talk though is he talks about his day and what he's going to do, and we only spend a moment talking about my day. Does that sound bad of me? I love hearing about his day and everything, he's starting these new jobs and it's exciting and happy and all sorts of good stuff. I know it's only temporary. I still love him with all my heart.

I can't wait to be a doctor. Or at least be in med-school. Med-school should be better than undergrad. At least I hope so haha. I don't know what I'm going to do if I don't get into med school. I have to stay positive. I can do this!

Oh and a last little side note, I'm looking to download new music, any suggestions?

I <3 Legally Blonde

Ello all!

I hope everyone in the blogging world had a fabulous weekend. Me, I almost died.

Yep that's right. If I just keel over and bite the dust don't be surprised. After a oh so long day at work on Saturday, I preceded to come home and double over in pain in my stomach/side area. I have no idea what the fuck is wrong with my stomach lately, but it SO does not like me. And then my side is just a mess. That's a long story, that starts with me being in the hospital for a week last December. I have this really long word of a disorder, but basically what it is, is a virus that attacks the lymph nodes in the abdomen, and typically masks itself as appendicitis. So I end up with a fever, not being able to hold food down, killer pain in my side, dehydrated kind of deal. It is no fun, none at all.

But through all of this the Boy still wanted to take me out to a nice dinner on him (so sweet) and then let me lay around and relax all evening. He was even going to set something up at a hot tub place for me, but I'd rather lay in bed with him.

Things are oddly looking up. I'm broke as all get out. Before I deposited my paycheck today, I had $6.66 in my bank account. Yep, that's right, I thought I was getting the plague or something because of it. I also have to pay ALL of my outstanding parking tickets through the university before I can pay the $300 to get my parking pass, plus buy my lab notebook for my Human Physiology lab that starts tomorrow at 1. So yes, I have $0 to my name and lots more to spend. Fun.

But despite that, I'm happy. The only thing that I'm worried about is finding a sub leaser for my old apartment. Because right now, I'm paying rent to not live there, which is really no good when I have even more expenses and no money. So I need someone to move in there ASAP, and the ex-Snookie doesn't seem to be caring or helping too much right now. Hell, she won't even return my Stalkbook messages. But I'm not letting this get in the way of my good mood.

I watched "Legally Blonde" earlier today while I was doing some homework. Then of course I had to listen to the "Legally Blonde the Musical" soundtrack after that. If anyone out there hasn't heard the soundtrack, stop reading right this second and start downloading it! It is a must have! And I'm serious, you think I'm joking but I'm not. Get. It. Now.

But that movie/musical always puts me in a happy and motivated mood. I'm determined to do well this semester. My last spring semester and summer semesters kicked my ass. But this could be the time for me to do well. And I feel like if I can pull off these classes, it will keep me that much more motivated to study hard core and do amazingly on my MCAT's (AHHHH! Scariest word EVER!).

And the Boy started his new job! Did I mention before that he got fired? He used to sell jewelry (yay for me!), but he got fired from that. Then he decided to start as an IBO (Independent Business Owner), and on top of that he got a job at my university doing IT work! How perfect is that? If you knew him, you would know that those two jobs are PERFECT for him! And he loves this new job at the uni, and he's near me all the time! I love it! And he's so much happier now than when he was at his old job. The mood change is incredible.

So things are going well. I'm trying to not even think of the negative things and just focus on the amazing things that I do have.

I felt like there was so much more I wanted to say earlier, hmmm, that's why I should update when things come to my mind! Or start taking blogging notes during classes when they come to me! Haha.

Anywho, I think it's time for me to get ready for bed, I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. Goodnight blogging world, and sweet dreams!

(Go download that soundtrack right now!)

Ooops!

I have got to get used to this semester and it's schedule!

I'm so used to having to be on campus and in class by 10am everyday (with an exception maybe once a week).

So this morning, I get up, get ready, make a post, the usual, yada yada.

Leave my place at 9h30, get to the Chem building at 9h50, thinking I'd be right on time for my 10am class.

Except my class starts at 9h30.

Where the hell was my mind? I didn't realize it until I looked up at the clock and thought it was wrong, because it was just then that I realized my lecture had already started 20 minutes before.

So I sneak in really quietly and try and find my two friends (out of the probably 180 students in the class), and manage to slide in.

Way to go me.

Eh, I'll get this new semester figured out soon enough. Hopefully I'm not late anymore!

In other news, it is rainy and dreary and cold here! The past few days it's been sunny and near 90 out! And today it's cold and rainy and around 65. Boo hiss! I need warm weather! I got all wet and cold on campus. So now I'm back at home, curled up in my jeans and the Boy's college hoodie trying to thaw out before I have to go to work.

It's the perfect day to just curl up and watch movies or read a good book! But I have to go to work and make those big bucks. Hahaha oh I crack myself up.

Then after that I'm going to the Boy's place. I'm so excited! We haven't spent the night together since Saturday, which makes me so sad. I can't wait to spoon! And he has a king size bed! And oooooh sex. Mmmm yes please! And I don't have to be back on campus until 1pm tomorrow, winner! It's going to be a good night!

I suppose I should go get my things together and head off to work, don't want to be late for that today too!

I hope everyone in the blogging world has a great day!

I just needed a good nights sleep

So basically I want to do what's going on in this picture with the Boy. I want to find him and run and jump into his arms. And then never let him go of course.

My first thought this morning, besides "God I don't want to wake up, it's too early" (I hit my snooze button for 35 minutes), was "Wow I miss the Boy, and I love him so much."

I think it means something when the semi-first thing on your mind is your significant other.

So despite the conversation I had with S last night, which got more and more interesting as the night progressed, it doesn't matter because he will never be the Boy. There's no comparison. I'm not even worried any more.

Ahh, love.

God never in my life did I think that I would actually find a guy I loved. Wow. Whodathunk it?

Random side note, I broke my no coffee drinking thing that I had going on for a good 2 or 3 weeks.

And I also broke my no tanning thing.

Hell I'm gonna get cancer from something right?

That's just why I have to go to med school and then find the cure.

It's on my list of things to do. You know, cure cancer, create world peace, the works.

I think I might be a horrible girlfriend...

Oh. My. God.

I think I might be a horrible girlfriend. I love my boy, don't get me wrong. But...

(You knew there was a "but" in there)

S started talking to me online tonight. Which is fine, we're friends, who used to fuck. A lot. And it would all be fine...

Until I got the invite to come over. We used to live not even a block from each other when I lived at my old place. So he was bummed that I wasn't there any more. He said he could use some company this week since his roommate is gone.

And the bad part is I thought about it.

Mentally smack me upside the head right now. I can take it. And I deserve it.

Yes, in theory I could go over there and we could just hang out and do our friend thing that we do so well. But....

....You never know.

And it doesn't help that I'm horny as HELL.

I NEED TO HAVE SEX.

I'm usually not a sex machine at all, but damn. The Boy and I haven't had sex since around noon on Saturday. And it was a quickie before we went to a wedding.

What am I thinking? I love the Boy. I really do. I love being with him, I love everything about us. It just happens like this though. We're having a rough spot because of the whole me moving thing, and school starting, and he got fired from his job so he's trying to start up his own IBO thing. And what happens, S just comes flying right back into the picture.

I can't fall for it. I love the Boy way too much to screw it up.

And he just asked me how my love life was going.

I'm so worried I'm going to screw up what I have with the Boy. It's the first really great relationship I've ever had. The first functional one, and it's just, it's too good. I've been waiting for something to screw it up, mainly because that's what typically happens to me.

I can't think that way. I have a great boyfriend and things will be amazing.

Sigh.

I will almost always use quotes to describe my life

One of my favorite Grey's Anatomy quotes

Actually that's not fair, I probably couldn't narrow it down to even 25 quotes that I would say were my favorite. I love them all.

Derek: I was a jerk. Sometimes boyfriends can be jerks, but it doesn't mean you stop talking to them. You get that I'm saying I'm sorry, right?
Meredith: You yelled at me for no reason, and then you walked away. And now you show up here.
Derek: Of course I showed up. Why wouldn't I? You don't trust me?
Meredith: I do.
Derek: Ok, well this is how it works. You fight sometimes and somebody apologizes.
Meredith: Well, how am I supposed to know that?
Derek: You've never done this before.
Meredith: No, I've never done this before.
Derek: Hmm. Okay, all right. Well, this is- From now on, you can expect that I'm gonna show up. Even if I yell. Even if you yell. I'm always gonna show up. Okay?
Meredith: Okay.

Sigh. Story of my life.

Anywho, it's time for me to get my booty in gear because I have to be to my first class of the semester in a half hour.

Wish me luck!

Drama queens?

Why is it that guys are so dramatic?

I understand that I'm not the typical girl, in the fact that I should really be a gay man, but seriously, I don't do drama. I don't get it. Drama does no one any good.

The Boy today was being hella pissy with me. It all started when I had a simple status message up on my AIM. All it said, and I quote, was "Shower and such". He got upset and weirded out and was wondering why I would want to broadcast that to the world. He was like:

"Did you ever see that movie, where there was a girl and the last thing that she said was that she was getting naked and getting in the shower? Well the next thing you know she was raped and killed."

For one I'd like to know what crazy movie he was talking about. For two, seriously?

He was just weirded out. And then I said I would change it, no big deal. Then he freaked out and was worried that he was being an ass and then he said he would go away because he didn't want to talk to me.

What. The. Fuuuuuuuuuuuudge.

Then he's all pissy and saying that I should just go out and enjoy the errands that I have to run, and how he doesn't care about tonight (we're going to have a bbq with Boom Boom and Tits).

Then just as I get home I get a text from him (after not hearing from him for an hour)

"How's it coming love?"

I so don't get men.